Apologies.
Sometimes, I just don't know what to do with them.
It depends on the timing.
The structure.
And, the person.
An apology can never really fix anything.
However, they can act as a tool,
used to alleviate some of the pain.
But this runs too deep.
And this was a hard subject.
You can't really put a price on friendships.
Or love.
Or hate.
Or anything for that matter.
I accepted,
and said my dues.
Explained everything that I thought necessary.
But what will things be like now?
I suppose I was at a medium.
Not really engaging in anything too special.
I was kind of numb. Kind of not really there.
Did she mean what she said?
Or was it just a hoax to get me to feel better?
I wonder what got to her?
I feel sorry for whatever I may have done to ruin anything.
Everything is in the past.
It's my past, It's her past, and none of it will ever be forgotten.
I will never forget.
I will carry on.
In my natural pressence.
Maybe all she needed was to think.
I never really knew her too well,
so I cannot be too sure.
Actually, she never really liked me.
There is nothing left to say right now.
It's just an unfinished conversation between the two of us.
Maybe that's all it will ever be.
But who knows?